After an extremely frustrating experience of kyudo this morning, there’s really nothing you can do.
You show up, do the best you can, listen to others, and what happens happens. Part of it is what you want, part of it is all the other stuff going on. What you see in kyudo is honesty, whether you like it or not.
But screw all of that.
When you finish kyudo in the morning, you’re done, and the rest of the day is ahead of you, and there’s lots of other things to do.
There’s probably a ton of others things you’re good at, plenty of other things to enjoy, and there’s no reason to carry the burden of your previous failures with you. Let them go. Forget about it. Who cares anyway?
Look at everyone around you, do you see anybody doing everything perfect?
Probably not. If you’re concerned about such things, you’ll probably notice all the other disgusting and stupid things people do, and their lack of concern about it. The world just swirls around as it is, little affected by our desire for it to be perfect.
Screw it. You did your best. You finished. It’s time to move on.
Quickly recovering from failure is perhaps one of the greatest things from kyudo. Don’t burden yourself with your hate, and don’t put it on anybody else. If you had a bad day in kyudo, it’s all the more reason to be happy that it’s over. You finished.
On to the rest of the world.
Break out of your kyudo prison.